Not because I've actually quit anything...my current lifestyle is just different than my old lifestyle, I guess. It's for the better, even though it isn't going to impress anyone looking at my resume.
"Sarah, why did you used to be involved in 359 activities and never sleep? Now your resume is blank except for work, school, Icthus, and the crisis nursery and you still don't sleep. Why did you become a failure?"
"I've decided people are more important than resumes. I've stopped screwing people over because I didn't have time for them. My purpose in life isn't to do more, but it's to help more and love more."
"Wow, you should write a book. Really. Because we're not hiring you. It might be your only chance at making money."
I know. I see it coming. I'm accepting of it...?
On another quitting note, within the last week I've almost quit both work and the crisis nursery. (Feeling like quitting school is more of an everyday occurrence.)
I get tired of people taking advantage of my helpful attitude at work; but is that just me being bitter that they're not "appreciating" me enough? I always go above and beyond. Maybe I'm just expecting people to consider me as a person. I'm not really sure.
I walked into the crisis nursery yesterday, and they gave me a huge list of chores to do that didn't allow me any time with the kids. Including vacuuming while the kids were asleep. I asked if we could wait until they woke up, and they said no.
I would like to say to them: What is your purpose? Is it really to just follow rules and schedules more than love on these kids and create the best environment for THEM? I was sooooo frustrated. I'm not quitting yet...I know those kids are more important than anything.
So I guess that's why I feel like a quitter.
But hey, I love you. Does that make it any better?
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